Consciousness…too new to handle?

I was on the phone with a woman I’d never met or talked to before; she immediately started the conversation with lots of new information for a project I needed to work on. I didn’t feel prepared and was having a hard time keeping up. Then, something she said made me recall a dream I had a few nights ago, and in that moment, everything she was saying turned into gibberish! I didn’t know how to handle all of the new information being given already, and now something came into consciousness? I was lost. The woman asked me a question and since I didn’t answer it, she asked again. I heard her but I was mentally frozen. It was one of the weirdest experiences I’ve had in a long time. I later talked to my therapist about it and as I was telling her what happened, I realized that I have information overload more often than I realized.

We started talking about other situations that we’ve discussed in the past, and in those situations, I’ve kept going without stopping to figure them out. And once I go on overload, I become irritable and impatiently cope by running to next thing, instead of handling what is overwhelming me. The situations I recalled with my therapist from previous sessions were daily type of interactions with others. But nevertheless, the information or feelings either dropped off or I didn’t process immediately. So, it created layers of unresolved, unprocessed, and ignored information and feelings. And, it has pestered in my sub-consciousness, turning all of it into guilt, mental punishment, or hurt about unresolved or mishandled information and feelings.

I recognize that I haven’t been patient enough, loving enough, or compassionate enough toward myself to take the time to process any and all information overload, and the painful or hurtful information, or glitches in my consciousness. I’ve never taken the time to learn how to address this big issue in my life. So then, I go searching for something to enlighten me, and what do I find? Oh, just another amazing post by Elizabeth Gilbert about our consciousness. There's work to be done. Namaste. - Fabiola

Elizabeth Gilbert writes in her post:
Our bodies are old, and well-tested, and they rock.
But our consciousness, by comparison, is NEW.
Really new.

So, yes, sometimes we cannot understand our emotions, and often we cannot figure out how handle them or heal them. But that’s only because we’re still practicing with this radically new software.
Think of it this way — if you break your femur (the largest bone in the human body) that bone, properly cared for, can heal in six weeks and you’ll be walking again soon. No problem. Which is amazing. But that’s only because the body is ancient and wise, and it basically knows how to fix itself by now.

But if somebody tells you that you’re fat and stupid, thirty or forty years later, that wound might STILL HURT — just as deeply as the day you first heard those painful words. That’s CRAZY. But that’s only because the consciousness is young and full of glitches, and we don’t totally know how to manage it yet.

If only emotional pain were as easy as a broken bone!

But it isn’t.

What’s the upshot of all this?

Be patient and loving and compassionate.

Be patient and loving and compassionate with yourself, and be patient and loving and compassionate with all of humanity.

Never forget: we are just all beginners in an unprecedented consciousness experiment. It's mighty, it's strange, and it's hard.

We are in evolution now — even as we speak. Some of our fellow humans seem to be more highly evolved than the rest of us — and why do we call them “highly evolved”? Because those people seem to possess a compassion that is so broad, so generous, so heightened and so healing that they make human consciousness seem like a gift, not a curse. They take even their most difficult suffering, and they transform it, alchemy-like, into love. They show us what it could be like, to possess these remarkable minds. They make humanity look good. They sometimes even make it look easy.
Let’s all try to be more like them, and help this process of human evolution along, shall we?


Be patient and loving and compassionate with everyone in the world, from yourself on outward — and take note of the places where your compassion fails. As Jack Kornfield says: That’s where the work lies.

It's worth the work.

It’s amazing, what we are. But it’s even more amazing, what we could be.